The END of World???

Everyone were busy talking abt 211212...
coz of maya prophecy that tis day is the end of the world...
Haha...
My bro in law keep asking gotta buy candles n some foods to survive if the prophecy is real...
who's cares???
I still going out with my ♥ bibi to CELEBRATE the day...
if the day is gonna come to the end, at least I still be with my loved 1...
Then we discovered the nice food... (^^)V

KAW KAW Burger Bakar, at Tmn Mayang, PJ...

The left 1 is beef burger, the patties really juicy n tasty...
with bacon n melting chesses, the perfect combination.... ^^
THUMB UP!!!! ♥ ♥ ♥

The right 1 is chicken burger, with bacon oso...
but it's bit salty...
overall it's ok, coz the chicken taste not bad, crunchy n juicy juz like KFC's chicken...

I personally vote for the beef burger, coz it's delicious...
I love the grilled patties, taste not so oily n greasy...
next time I wish I can bring my family along to try the burger... ^^

Mae's mum Birthday

Happy earlier birthday celebration for my 2nd Mum!!!

Good bless to her, although she is not my real mum... but she treat me just like her real daughter, ♥ u, muacksz muacksz.... =3=

Whole family PIC... 

I ♥  tis pic so much, coz our face expression r so natural... ^^

They r my 2nd family, I love n appreciate the fate that we r together...

My BEST ever Frenz n JI MUI in Utar... ♥ 

This is me, Jane Loh... (who dunno me worr, stop being fool!!!) >.<

Long time din take photo by myself, the face expression bcame weird n nood d... T^T

But I still prefer tis pic... haha~ ♥ 

♥12.12.12 ♥

哎呀, 迟了一天, 才来PO文... (我太outdated 了)
看那么多人的面书都121212的, 我当然也要来凑凑热闹咯... (真38)
不过这天真是个好难得遇见的日子, 12.12.12...
这天也是示爱日哦... ♥♥♥
可是可怜的我, 却要在这天考试, 而且还是第一张paper...
在考纸上写着121212, 心情莫名的觉得好愁怅...
别科系的也都开开心心的放假去了, 我还要待在这个鸟不生蛋的地方, 真悲哀... T^T
而且, 也没男朋友在身边... (我最爱的BIBI出国去了)
只有一堆的日语note陪我度过了这特别的一天.... (心情好复杂)
不过, 一件事情让我超开心的... (顿时心花怒放, 朵朵绽放)
我的BIBI大人虽然人在国外, 但他email我, 和我说 Happy 121212....
这个连我们重要的周年纪念日都会忘记的傻瓜竟然会特地在这天寄mail给我...
看到我都开心死了!!!! ♥
好想大声呐喊, 宣泄我这开心到不能开心的心情.... (HAPPY指数爆表)
好想立刻把他扑上床, 嘿嘿.... O.o
呵呵... 真的真的觉得好意外...
既然12.12.12是示爱日, 那我也来宣示我的爱意吧... (好害羞)

BIBI, I ♥ U!!!!!! muacksz muacksz.... ^3^

Happy 12.12.12  ♥ ^o^ 

EMO

Feeling so sad these few days...
That y I always blur blur n I dunno wat I was thinking...
The mind was blank n empty, n need sweet to make me feel happy...
Bcoz it's going to the end of the year...
I still rmb wat we promise before...
till tis end of month, the decision will b make abt our relationship...
I know the incident make u heartbroken, losing faith to me...
Normally u juz like nothing, but I know u really care abt it...
From the way u talking, u treat me, I know...
I so afraid of losing u...
coz I really do love u, nobody will give me such strong feeling as u do...
I even forget the time with my ex...
I lost interested with guys, even my frenz recommend to me, no matter how good looking r him, I also not interested or got feeling to it...
I start wonder am I still a normal girl???
I dunno who can listen to my thought, who can I really tell to???
If I telling others, they also wont prescribe to the right method...
This is my problem, I juz can accept n solve by myself...

December 2012

izzit true 12-21-12 is the end of the world??
haha... if it is true, no more 2013.. ( cheh, I talking bullshit)
however, NOW ady December, the end of the year..
Y SO FAST???

haha... tis year passing so fast, like doing nothing in this year..
juz in a flash, goes nothing..
ok larr, got many incidents happened in 2012..
msn incident, the most terrible thing happened in my study life, n I ady failed on this subject... (FUCK)
celebrate most of my frenz birthday, tis year oni except of pascal 1... (SHIT, feel so sorry for him)
1st time celebrating valentine's day with frenz...
1st time go couple trip with my Bibi... (Genting)
I keep my hair longer... ( LOL, tis oso included mie??)
n I got new family members, which is Neslo, Mimi n hardneck (stubborn??)

Neslo---> 1st ever Baby Bear from my lovely BF ♥ ♥ ♥
Hardneck---> my 21st Birthday gift from my dear frenz Mae
Star---> last year birthday present from my Kedah BFF 

My new family member
---> Mimi
She got different eyes color, left eye is Blue n right eye is Yellow...
Cute n notty face.. (juz like me, hehe)





N the most important thing is....
I m officially 21 years old.. (WooHooo)
haha... can get married d, without sign of parent... (So Fast??)
my Bibi come over Kampar to celebrate my birthday with my frenz...
but I really happy although I ady been cheated... (they all pakat 2 cheating me)
However, they are best to me!!

My 21 birthday celebration with those Sampat Geng n my ♥ Bibi in Kampar.... 

But I think now no more same geng will gather like the pic above...
Bcoz some of them ady under probation n no intend 2 continue the study..
some of them seem like separate their life with us...
Juz like the broken mirror, cant gather again...
But I do believe that we can meet juz like we do before...

Now back to the topic...
I having lot of fun n sadness happened in this year...
nobody will going their life smoothly...
we muz facing challenges to make ourself more tougher and stronger..
Juz like Kelly Clarkson song "what doesn't kill u make u stronger"... (My favourite Song ^^)
So, make ourself more useful than previous year, improve n upgrade the inner beauty and stand taller than others does...

可怕. 受創. 童年. 信念.

受創與受傷的童年經驗，錯植了一個可怕的信念在你的心裡：

「如果我被遺棄，我會死去」，
「如果我被丟下只剩一個人，代表我非常不重要」，
「如果別人不在乎我的感覺就離開我，就代表我根本不該存在」….

這些信念在童年時期，植入，
讓你深信不疑一個充滿遺棄的世界，
與一個充滿恐懼的世界，
彷彿靠自己獨活、獨自存在是一件很不幸、很可憐的事，
所以你痛惡"一個人"的感覺，痛惡身邊"沒有任何人關愛"的虛空感。

你拒絕承認生命的虛空，
也拒絕承認生命孤獨的本質，
所以，你更想要抓住、抓緊任何可能的在乎、在意
與"想要你"的訊息。

你想要被需要，
因為你痛惡遺棄，
你想要被在乎，
因為你拒絕自己的虛無。

然而，你終究還是會在許多人事物，
特別是那些被你視為應該要愛你的身上，
感到莫大的遺棄，與莫大的漠視。

你痛苦不已，
像極了童年時期的那些恐懼，
還有無助與不得抗議的那種委屈。

你幾乎要想破頭了，
卻還是無法明白與瞭解：
為什麼我這麼好，他們卻還是不愛我....

ARIES...

白羊的字典裡永遠沒有利用兩個字；他們不懂什麼是阿諛奉承、很真很瀟灑，脾氣急、易衝動、永遠都是刀子嘴豆腐心，倔強、喜怒哀樂全寫在臉上、不懂什麼是偽裝，膽大、喜歡挑戰。

白羊的我們熱情起來彷彿遇到救命恩人，冷漠起來連眼皮都懶得擡。衝動起來彷彿沒有大腦，明智起來像冷血動物。愛的狂熱起來連呼吸都忘了，冷淡起來對方的存在可以忽略不計。幼稚起來可以去讀幼兒園，深沈起來可以媲美哲學家。瘋狂起來可以把天倒塌下來，安靜起來可以消失在空氣中。

白羊女生往往有點不可理喻，有點可愛，有點任性。心計不多，鬧完了兇完了，不記仇，白羊女心胸寬廣，只是別激怒了她。她的熱情可以把你融化，她的霸道往往叫你無可奈何。她會用偽裝的冷漠和麻木嚇退所有的追求者，只有真正懂她的人才珍惜她。為了愛，她可以放下所有的驕傲 。

說到主動，其實相反，白羊有時候很被動，與朋友相處時，許多方面都是去配合旁人，他們覺得友誼最重要，因此在討論去哪裡玩，吃什麼這樣選擇性的問題上總是會適他人意，說得最多的就是「隨便」這個詞，因為這一切在羊羊們眼裡是不重要的，重要的是和什麼人在一起，開不開心 對嗎？

對於坦誠的白羊來說，是有什麼就會說什麼的，衝動的他們還表現在生活的各個方面，雖然常常因此而讓一些最親密的人受傷，可他們就是沒辦法控制好心情，隨意已經成了一種習慣。就是這樣一個充滿了正義感，並且是堅強而好勝的星座。他們也選擇了沉默，不再發表任何意見，大概是訴說的對象不對，道不同不相為謀，以後記住了。

白羊座最大的弱點就是心軟、即使受到再大的打擊和傷害，只要對方低下頭來說對不起、虔誠的道歉，就會忍不住說沒關係。白羊最見不得別人哭、看到痛哭流涕的人，就會不由自主的去同情、去安慰，白羊心軟、也容易受傷，生活的瑣碎、習慣了一個人承受。

白羊座很善忘、他會經常把事情給忘記、不管是重要的、不重要的。和白羊吵架最好了、因為白羊不會記仇，這一秒吵得很兇、下一秒就給忘了、並且會原諒你，因為善忘、也經常把很重要的事情給忘記。

白羊座喜歡簡單、健忘不記仇，有鬥志愛拼博、別人對他好定加倍奉還的代表，天生的統籌專家、計劃性強、固執、明知是錯也要往前走，討厭做決定、愛笑、愛恨分明，白羊不愛發簡訊、也不愛打電話，懶惰蟲一個、只對特別的人會例外罷了。而自尊心很強、強過金錢、強過事業、也強過愛情。

白羊座需要慢慢相處，因為白羊是個被動的星座、慢熱的星座、放不開的星座，一見鍾情很難發生在白羊座身上、白羊們的愛需要時間，會喜歡很多人、卻很難愛一個。

白羊愛上一個人，就會想著對他好，並且是一種持久的想念而非短暫的激情，白羊們甚至會想得很長遠。白羊的愛是踏實的，並沒有太多的想法，戀愛中所有的出發點也都很簡單，他們往往很明確自己愛的到底是誰，對於自己的愛，白羊並不複雜，如果你覺得他複雜，只因為你不瞭解。

白羊是個愛情的執著者，不管這個世界變成怎樣，他們對愛的專一永遠也不會變。白羊的愛很深，他們雖然不常開口，但卻一直都在觀察著你的一舉一動，還有白羊的第六感出奇的好，千萬別做讓他們傷心的事情，白羊會記住，要愛白羊，最主要的就是要踏踏實實不能分心的給予最深的感情。

白羊從來就不怕付出，怕的只是在乎的那個人給了自己什麼樣的傷害。白羊也是人；白羊也會累，累的時候多渴望有一句懂得，而不是斥責。如果不是因為單純欣賞白羊的優點而選擇在一起，只是想自私的享受著白羊的寵，那麼白羊不適合你，因為白羊要的愛，不是路人甲乙丙都給得起。

白羊受傷了，會把眼淚撒在心裡；
微笑掛在臉上，不給別人看到自己的懦弱；
如果你看到白羊在哭泣，他們被傷得很深！ ♥

不懂的照顧自己，還是個衝動的笨蛋還常忘東忘西的呆白羊。

不哭是因为爱你 更是因为懂你

好喜欢这篇文章, 很简单的一段话, 却触动了我的心旋... ♥ ♥


(...)
一个男孩同时爱着两个女孩，他也明白，两个女孩也在心底爱着自己。然而在选择去与留时他却始终不知道该如何抉择，他不知道两个人到底谁更爱他多一点。

他先向一个女孩隐约地暗示，也许他们会分别。女孩听了，顿时泪如雨下，扑在他的怀里抽搐的身体随着哭泣声不停地颤抖：“你说过你爱我，我不能没有你。”


面对一个在自己怀里泣不成声的女孩，男孩犹豫了，于是安慰她：傻丫头，我不会离开你的。


当他向第二个女孩提起他和第一个女孩之间的事时，女孩低着头，没有说话。


“爱情的事别人左右不了的。”女孩留下一句话随即转身离去。


从见面到女孩转身离开，男孩没有见到她伤心哭泣，甚至连一滴泪也没有。其实那一刻，如果她要他留下，他会答应。


“也许她并不爱我。”男孩伤心地想。一个连挽留都不会的人能爱他有多深？可是他并没有发现女孩在转身离开时无声落下的泪。


后来，男孩选择了第一个女孩。


两年后，第二个女孩嫁给了别人。因为这个男人更懂她。提起两年前的分手，丈夫问她为什么当初不象那个女孩那样哭着请他留下。


“两个人的泪水能让他做出什么样的决定呢？明知道那只会让他更为难，我又如何忍心这么去做？”


她的丈夫终于明白，其实自己爱她的何尝不是她的这颗善良的心。


爱情在很多时候，放手的那个人并非爱的不深，往往真是因为爱的太真，才不忍让心爱的人受伤害。真心爱一个人，不是希望他能守侯在自己的身边，而是希望所爱的人能够幸福。爱一个人不一定要真正拥有，正因为无私的爱才值得永远珍藏。

不哭，是因为爱你，更因为懂你。

♥

送给自己的10句温馨话

1. 用心去做自己该做的事;

2. 每个人都有自己的活法;

3. 别总是和自己过不去;

4. 不要过于计较别人的评价;

5. 不妨暂时丢开烦心事;

6. 自己感觉幸福就是幸福;

7. 最重要的是今天的心;

8. 木已成舟便要顺其自然;

9. 不必一味讨好别人;

10. 喜欢自己才会拥抱生活.

兩個人一起是為了快樂, 分手是為了減輕痛苦;

既然我無法再令你快樂了, 我也唯有離開, 我離開的時候, 也很痛苦...

我比這世上任何一個人都更加熱切地盼望你能幸福,

只是, 想起這幸福沒有我的份, 還是會非常的難過...

I m Aries 羊咩咩

< 屬於白羊座的小秘密 >

1、總有一種被忽視的感覺；

2、付出的遠遠超過得到的；

3、很固執，不懂得放棄；

4、習慣冷戰；

5、在別人面前笑得很開心，一個人的時候卻很落寞；

6、陌生人前很安靜；

7、朋友面前愛胡鬧；

8、坐在電腦前，不知道做什麼，卻又不想關掉它；

9、經常不經意的發呆.

It's not about who hurt u n broke u down,
It's about who was always there to make u smile. ^^

After we had a conversation last nite, I m pretty, absolutely sure u r the 1 that I always dreaming for.
I feels really glad n lucky that I can met u, falling in ♥ with u...
Although I m still not gain ur trust on me, under probation~ing... (coz I really hurts u so badly)
But I swear I will try my most effort, to gaining ur trust...
bcoz true love, hard-earned...
I know as a gf, ur loved 1, honest n sincerity r the most important thing in a relationship.
Starting 2day, I will tell u everything that makes me happy, pissed off, sad, n worry...
Ok???
Hope u dun mind n feel annoying of that...


+ 1 thing
I never compare u with other guys..
bcoz if really wanted 2 make the comparison, u ady lost...
Out there there are plenty of guys that is much more handsome, more romantic, more richer, more fitter, more taller, more thoughtful, good temper than u.... 
Mayb love me more than u do...
I also can acts like other girls, ask u buy me things, use ur money without thinking... (coz it's not my money n I think it's necessary)
I can complaint n get angry on u when u not give me things as other ppl does...
However, u r special to me...
So, I understand every guys r different, even the fingers also got different lengths...
U got ur special way 2 treated me, loving me...
even I never receive any flower from u, but from the way u loving me, it feels juz like I ady received the most wonderful n prettier flower from u...
So so so embarrassing to tell u my feeling....

Haha I know I poor in express my feeling through words coz I dunno how 2 describe my feeling to u...
But I will try my best to improve myself...


When someone really loves u, 
They dun have 2 say it, u know,
Just by the way they treat u.

我該主動的

都主動了

沒有一個人永遠願意
拿自己的熱臉貼人家的冷屁股

抱歉、我也是人

我該改正的都改正了
沒有一個人永遠願意
為不相干的人無條件否定自己

抱歉、我也是人

我該忍讓的都忍讓了
沒有一個人永遠願意
收着冷嘲熱諷的窩囊氣

抱歉、我也是人

我該給的機會都給了
沒有一個人永遠願意
被用各種藉口的拒絶而傷害

抱歉、我也是人

我放下了這麼多
只是因為我愛你!!!!

只不过, 我累了, 真的累了

脆弱的我, 有点坚持不下去...

永远消失吧....

不能。重来

我们的关系, 已经出现缺口...
因为我犯下了无可原谅的错, 做出了无可弥补的事情, 背叛了你....
让你受伤, 心碎了...


有人说, 某些事情, 选择缄默, 埋在心里, 是最好的...
可是我并不想隐瞒你, 因为那是对你的不公平...
因为我曾经答应过你, 我们彼此是没有秘密的...
所以我选择让你知道...


我真的很后悔做出了那件事情...
很痛恨自己, 为何我会那么残忍, 伤害了用心去爱我的你....
你的反应, 莫过于我的悲痛....
原来伤了心爱的人, 心竟然是这么痛的...
心痛得身体没办法承受....
痛彻心扉, 痛彻入骨....
就连哭都发泄不出那种痛苦...
就连伤害自己的肉体, 也释放不出那种痛....
你叫我为自己而活, 我办不到....
对于一个伤害了爱人的我, 还有什么资格, 用什么态度面对我自己...
我原谅不到自己....
少了我这个祸害, 可以造福了许多人...


自从这件事情曝光了, 我们的感情也变质了...
虽然你选择了给我机会, 继续下去...
可是, 回不去从前那个幸福温馨的感觉了....
你变得不快乐了, 又忧郁了...
从前那个笑得开怀, 称呼我 BIBI 的你, 也不见了....
我们再也, 回不去了....

True or False???

只能说_______ 恋爱好难....
爱情这个东西不是谁都可以玩得起....
那种痛彻心扉的感觉真的好痛....
就如一条刺, 插在心上, 好难受...
你骂我没关系, 不过你说的话实在太过份了...
已经超出了我的底线....
我可不是因为容忍你, 迁就你才不出声回话, 是因为我尊重你, 我把你当作我的另一半....
但是你那坏脾气, 一次次把我对你的感情___ 抹杀掉....
你这种态度, 就犹如一颗计时炸弹, 时间一分一秒在计时中, 滴答滴答...
当到达某个程度, 就会爆炸....
我真的很怕我会爆发, 这就代表, 我们就会结束....
我真的很珍惜这段感情, 得来不易...
我从来都对感情不认真, 我怕伤害到自己, 也伤害到别人....
我以为真爱只是个名词, 根本是不会发生在我身上....
不过你很特别, 真的....
你让一个害怕爱的女孩, 感受到爱....
愿意打开心房, 不畏惧的去接受, 体验和享受爱情的滋味....
远距离不是问题....
可是你那几天的举动, 让我的心动摇了....
我一直犹豫, 怀疑, 猜测....
究竟我接受了这份感情, 是不是对的????
Who can answer me, izzit TRUE or FALSE???
Ur action ady makes my love fading away...

不是真正的快乐

我想要快乐, 如童年般快乐...
没有烦恼的...
只懂得玩乐, 和朋友东跑西跑, 不亦乐乎...
天天都过得好欢乐...
长大了, 真的会改变一切...
有人说: " 长大了, 就很难快乐了..."
因为接触的人多了, 遇到很多的事情, 增加和扩大眼界了...
然而, 却也不快乐了...
笑容也不像从前那般, 自然开怀....
学会了戴面具做人, 说话得小心翼翼, 以免得罪人...
不论做什么, 都要跟着大众的眼光....
生活越现实, 人心也被污染了...
昔日的, 再也不一样了....

My BIG Decision

这个月, 我遇到了很大的 "难题" ??
haha... :)
不算是难题吧, 是一个让我有机会考验我自己, 更加的认识我自己...

我发现到男朋友不是我想象中那么简单...
他瞒着我... (不是啦!!!)
我才察觉到原来他喜欢和女孩子聊天, flirt 女孩子...
刚开始发现时, 真的又气又恨...
恨不得把他大斩八块, 五马分尸, 让他下地狱... (太邪恶了, 哈哈)
那时, 心真的碎了, 破了, 一塌胡涂....
不知所措, 手发抖...
胃液在翻滚, 眼泪夺眶而出...
不能面对着他....
一见到他, 我就想起他和那些女孩的 conversation...
那么地亲, 那么的密... (我个人的感觉)
无精打彩, 面无表情...
我还要装出一副若无其事, 笑脸迎人...
他发现到我的异样了, 因为我真的不是个演戏的料, 演技超逊...
他一直询问我: 你怎么了, 不舒服吗?? 为什么苦着脸, 无精打彩的样子...
那时真想痛快地吼他, 真想哭...
可是我忍住我的情绪, 一直睁眼说大话...
就这样, 我一直对他说谎, 好几天...
因为我想好好的, 处理我的情绪, 我的思维, 我的心情, 我的感觉, 我对他的爱...
他是我最珍惜的情人, 朋友, 伴侣...
于是, 为了避免冲突与争吵, 我选择自己去寻找答案...
我询问朋友们的意见...
调查底细....
那时, 我有了分手的念头...
因为那时的我, 被恨意, 伤心, 背叛的感觉蒙蔽了心房...
我就打算去找他, 说出我的想法, 和他和平分手...
我搭上火车, 踏上分手之旅... (原本啦)

到了 KL Sentral 时还太早, 他还没放工, 我就一个人搭 monorail, 去Times Square 和金河广场..
就在那个时候, 改变了我的初衷...
在我吃 crepe cake 等待他的短短时候, 一本书, 拯救了在我心里,那差点枯萎, 凋谢的爱情...
拯救了一段值得我珍惜的一段情, 一段改变我的良缘... (好夸张, 哈哈)
这本书, 令我获益良多, 成长了不少...
经历了一段严峻的感情与心灵的考验....
也让我懂得, 问题出现的起源...
那是我, 我设定了一个自我喜爱模式, 在爱人身上...
殊不知那是一个伤到自己, 也伤害到他人的自私欲望...
当发现到标准不如预期, 就失望, 伤心, 愤怒....
我忘了, 一开始我们在一起是因为 "可以做自己"....
为什么我可以做自己, 而其他人就不可以呢??
每个人都拥有一套自我的风格, 不论是性格, 沟通方式, 想法...
那些风格, 在我还没出现在他生命之前, 就构成了现在我认识的他, 也是我最爱的他...
我爱他那成熟的想法, 那和普通人不一样的处事手法...
他给了我自信, 他鼓励我去尝试新事物, 带我一起去见识学习...
同时, 他让我了解到, 爱的滋味...
一个我从不想尝试, 也不敢去试的 "感觉"...
害怕受伤的我, 把自己包裹得紧紧, 不让任何人走进我最脆弱的感情地带....
他, 改变了我, 给了我勇气, 把那最隐秘的心理, 赤裸裸呈现在他面前....
或许那时被宠坏了, 把那些美好的感觉, 统统都丢开...
通过那本书, 我才发现, 原来我自己还是个 "爱情初学者"...
还不够道, 还有值得我去学习的事物....
不管未来如何, 我还是很庆幸, 有他, 在我心里留下珍贵的知识与爱...
我会好好努力, 去尝试....
去见证, 不管我的决定是对错....
不过我可以保证, 那一定是绝对的决定.... ♥

JUN

时光飞逝, 转眼又是一年了...

去年的这个月, 是我人生中第一次离家, 一个人去外地读书...

回想起去年的点点滴滴, 有开心的, 伤心的, 快乐的, 悲伤的..

每个人在这个世界上, 都会遇上人生的转折点...

在那个转折点, 我们不能预知以后所发生的事情...

是曲折, 充满棘荆的道路...

或是; 直通的, 平平顺顺的大道...

我们都不懂...

可是, 不管是遇到哪种情况, 只要保持乐观, 积极的心情;

都可以突破, 得到胜利...

对自己说声 " 加油", 为心打上一支强心针...

相信自己, 不管什么时候, 都是坚强, 挨得过的....

The previous MEeeeee

My short hairstyle since I was 16 years old... 

Above pic were captured from the age between 18~20 years old...

Haha, there are big changes on my look...

Before I m so younger and Ginna look...

my birthday present

 Present from Mae ~ my best sista ever... ^^

  Present from my lovely Parent... 

 Present from my bibi Mommy...

 Present from Mae Mummy, my godmother...

 Present from my beloved Sister... 

Of course, Thanks to my kampar buddies celebrating my 21th birthday.... 

And very very TQ to my lovely bibi, he tried his most best to finish his job and come over kampar to give me a most surprising and memorable birthday....

♥ LOVE him so much!!! ♥

EmO_DaY

这几天好累, 不管是生理还是心理;
不想出街, 不想聊天, 不想面对人群;
好想大声呐喊, 大声哭泣, 好想痛痛快快宣泄;
那些堆积在内心深处_______ 负面情绪....

我的烦恼, 没对象倾听, 没对象倾诉...
而且我最讨厌, 就是那些不懂用心听我说活, 还反过来对我大吐苦水, 向我征求意见和解决它所谓的烦恼的人...

Please, Bitch!!!!!
I'm not your fucking dictionary, your mentor, your teacher, your psychiatrist or google...
Don't asking me solution to solve your fucking problem...
Since you made your own decision, you will know what will gotta happen...
Don't make your fucking emo face to me or showing your sentiment....
It's just make me want to give you two slaps to wake you up...
Please be responsibility to your choice;
Be in charge of your life!!!!
I hate the people who doesn't know be responsible of their decision....

@$%$#%$%%^&&^*&**$@@!@$^&&*
FUCK OFF MY LIFE!!!!! 凸凸凸凸凸凸凸凸凸凸

21_生日~快乐

第一次在外地过生日...
这20年以来, 都是家人帮我庆祝生日....
在外面过生日的感觉特别感慨, 唏嘘, 有股淡淡的失落....
当看见哥哥为我唱生日歌, 感觉特别窝心...^^

人~ 是不可以贪心的, 要知足, 懂得寻找属于自己的小小幸福..
懂得享受, 懂得惜福, 懂得感恩!!!!
要知道每个人都是特别个体, 有自己的人格, 思维, 性格, 脾气..
别奢望别人对你施舍, 吹捧和奉承...
要懂得的是, 不管是什么人, 就算是亲人, 总有天都是会离开我们身边...
Just do what I like, don't bother with others, my life is on my hands...
对自己说声: " Happy 21th Birthday!!! "
现在开始, 我的生活, 我决定..... ♥

Bibi de BIG day ♥

Congratulate to my lovely bibi...
Happy Graduate Day...
haha...
I make the plot since long long time ago to give him a memorable and unforgettable graduate day...
although my plan are not succeed at all ( because somebody messed my plan )
but already surprising my bibi and he is very happy for it..
Thanks to my sister n my brother in-law helping me to fulfil my plan... ^^
so on the corporation from my bibi family...
Thank you all !!!!!!

Happy Graduate Day My bibi.... ♥♥♥

White Valentine-白色情人节快乐

特别的日子,
想念特别的你.....
分隔两地的思念,
联系着你和我最真挚的爱意.....
这个白色情人节, 祝你快乐!!!!!!
Bibi, I love u.... ^^

忙啊忙啊 !!!!!!!

这两个星期, 是学期里最忙碌的时期....
天天赶assignment, presentation;
再加上还有midterm和即将要开始拍presentation的video,
每天都忙得焦头烂额, 披头散发, 再加上一对黑得像画了烟熏妆的熊猫眼...
真是一个字可以形容 "残" !!!!!!

我要HOLIDAY 啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊 !!!!!!!!!
faster come to my side, I need you.......

HapPy VaLeNtinE's Day

My baby n I celebrate our 1st valentine earlier...

We had a happy n sweet dating,

Having my favourite Green Tea ice cream of Häagen-Dazs;

Having dinner at Italiannies- The Curve;

My Bibi give me de Valentine gift- la SenZa lingerie... *shy shy... ><

He being my photographer, capture some sexy photo for me...

It's the most sexier n expansive ever bra in my life!!!

TQ for my sweet Baby.... muacks muacks~ <3

Misunderstood

I crying for 2day...
Something bad bad happen 2 me...
My frenz misunderstood me instigated his girl frenz 2 break up with him...
(His GF oso my good frenz)
Bcoz whenever they got argument or quarrel,
his gf will come n chatting with me,
seek for my advices about the problem of the relationship...
Then he thought me inciting his GF,
finding a new BF or says something bad behind him...
N he sent a message for me,
which is hurts me so badly !!!!

"宁教人打仔, 莫叫人分妻"

At 1st, I doesn't know what the exactly meaning of the phrase,
I feels weird n insecure, I already knowing something bad gonna happen...
Then, I go ask my BF,
he told me, It means I separate the couple...
Suddenly, I felt upset, frustration n angry...
Y my frenz thought me like the kind of bad character...
I always thinking he is my best frenz at UTAR,
I never think wan 2 breaking them...
I always wan them get along happily n nicely...
Thus, my tears comes out unstoppable...
I cant control my feeling anymore..
so I calling my frenz-Mae 2 accompany me..
Haha, she very nervous n come over me with HK,
comfort me n tried 2 make fun 2 cheers me up..
Of course, HE oso got come along with his GF,
he feels guilty n really sorry for me coz of that words he said 2 me...
I'm feels nothing when c them so gang jiong me n come 4 me...
I feel so touch at the moment...
N then, I get a FREE lunch-SUSHI KING,
n my bibi oso said wan bring me dinner at MURNI ...
so happy, I can save my dine in money for 1 day... hahaha~
BUT, it 's not the most happy thing,
the greatest thing is they make it up le,
His GF dont think wan break up with him edi....
I'm so glad for it...
what kind of ppl wan 2 c a lovely couple break up????
Moreover they r your best frenz...
I guess NO...

TQ, MY BFF-Mae, HK, Pascal n Vivi...
I love u guys.... ^ ^
muack muack muack muack muack~
Friendship Forever... <3

Valentine's gift

1st time I bought an expansive branded perfume .....

Hugo Boss Energise 

The smell is so so great, very suitable for men use...

So I decided - bought this perfume for my lovely baby as his 1st valentine gift to commemorate our 1st year celebrating valentine's day together...

元宵节快乐~

与Bibi , 他的朋友和妹妹一起去逛逛抛柑大会....
现场好多人哦....
还一起放了孔明灯...
<3
当天Bibi还闹了一个笑话, 真是笑死人...
^ ^
希望明年, 后年或是每一年都可以和最爱的Bibi一起庆祝元宵....

2012 = New Life

2012 another NEW year....
It is a whole new year for me, and everyone in the world...
It could be a born new year for the people who want to make a change, no matter it is...
The people who wish 2 changing into new look, I really hope they will be do that so...
Keep fighting, 2 reach your own target;
Making better, and don't forget giving some love 4 the person you really care for..
Don't be selfish, they will appreciate what you give, and love you more....

Looking behind, what I had been done in the past year..
I graduated from STPM;
Went into a job temporarily;
Then, leaving my sweet sweet hometown, starting my University Life in UTAR;
Make new friends, they are Angie, Alex, Ishiko, Mae Tze, Miina, Pascal, Vivi, and Zy Lin...
They are most interesting and playful people that I ever met;
They brought a lot of fun to my Uni life;
I really LOVE them!!!
Put over the 4 years of relationship, which is hurts me so badly... T^T
Fortunately, I met with my Mr.Right;
He as the light in the darkness, bringing me hope and lighten me;
I LOVE LOVE him so much!!!!
Hahaha...

So, this new year, please be good to me... ^^
BAD thing away, Bringing more GOOD things to me!!!!

My Uni Friends- Miina, Angie, Mae Tze, Vivi, Pascal, ME, Zy Lin, Alex and Ishiko.

Celebration of Pascal- M forehead de birthday at Each A Cup, Kampar.

My LoVely Baby- Kah Eng and Me.

Dating at Pavilion, with fat Egypt Bear Bear.