Love U 1314

today is a special day...
N it's rare to get tis special year n day...
2013.1.4, for chinese ppl they will know what this number/date mean for...
it means love U for life...

u can tell tis words to the person u loved, such as family, frenz, or the special person in life...
but mostly couple will do confess to their partner, as a way to impress or express the love to their lover...

so do I...
I want to tell my lovely bibi, the person I really love him with all my heart...
Happy 201314...
I wish I can spend my whole lifetime with u, without any doubt... ♥

FRIDAY, 4th JANUARY OF 2013...

♥ 5. 2013. 1. 4 ♥

The END of World???

Everyone were busy talking abt 211212...
coz of maya prophecy that tis day is the end of the world...
Haha...
My bro in law keep asking gotta buy candles n some foods to survive if the prophecy is real...
who's cares???
I still going out with my ♥ bibi to CELEBRATE the day...
if the day is gonna come to the end, at least I still be with my loved 1...
Then we discovered the nice food... (^^)V

KAW KAW Burger Bakar, at Tmn Mayang, PJ...

The left 1 is beef burger, the patties really juicy n tasty...
with bacon n melting chesses, the perfect combination.... ^^
THUMB UP!!!! ♥ ♥ ♥

The right 1 is chicken burger, with bacon oso...
but it's bit salty...
overall it's ok, coz the chicken taste not bad, crunchy n juicy juz like KFC's chicken...

I personally vote for the beef burger, coz it's delicious...
I love the grilled patties, taste not so oily n greasy...
next time I wish I can bring my family along to try the burger... ^^

Mae's mum Birthday

Happy earlier birthday celebration for my 2nd Mum!!!

Good bless to her, although she is not my real mum... but she treat me just like her real daughter, ♥ u, muacksz muacksz.... =3=

Whole family PIC... 

I ♥  tis pic so much, coz our face expression r so natural... ^^

They r my 2nd family, I love n appreciate the fate that we r together...

My BEST ever Frenz n JI MUI in Utar... ♥ 

This is me, Jane Loh... (who dunno me worr, stop being fool!!!) >.<

Long time din take photo by myself, the face expression bcame weird n nood d... T^T

But I still prefer tis pic... haha~ ♥ 

♥12.12.12 ♥

哎呀, 迟了一天, 才来PO文... (我太outdated 了)
看那么多人的面书都121212的, 我当然也要来凑凑热闹咯... (真38)
不过这天真是个好难得遇见的日子, 12.12.12...
这天也是示爱日哦... ♥♥♥
可是可怜的我, 却要在这天考试, 而且还是第一张paper...
在考纸上写着121212, 心情莫名的觉得好愁怅...
别科系的也都开开心心的放假去了, 我还要待在这个鸟不生蛋的地方, 真悲哀... T^T
而且, 也没男朋友在身边... (我最爱的BIBI出国去了)
只有一堆的日语note陪我度过了这特别的一天.... (心情好复杂)
不过, 一件事情让我超开心的... (顿时心花怒放, 朵朵绽放)
我的BIBI大人虽然人在国外, 但他email我, 和我说 Happy 121212....
这个连我们重要的周年纪念日都会忘记的傻瓜竟然会特地在这天寄mail给我...
看到我都开心死了!!!! ♥
好想大声呐喊, 宣泄我这开心到不能开心的心情.... (HAPPY指数爆表)
好想立刻把他扑上床, 嘿嘿.... O.o
呵呵... 真的真的觉得好意外...
既然12.12.12是示爱日, 那我也来宣示我的爱意吧... (好害羞)

BIBI, I ♥ U!!!!!! muacksz muacksz.... ^3^

Happy 12.12.12  ♥ ^o^ 

EMO

Feeling so sad these few days...
That y I always blur blur n I dunno wat I was thinking...
The mind was blank n empty, n need sweet to make me feel happy...
Bcoz it's going to the end of the year...
I still rmb wat we promise before...
till tis end of month, the decision will b make abt our relationship...
I know the incident make u heartbroken, losing faith to me...
Normally u juz like nothing, but I know u really care abt it...
From the way u talking, u treat me, I know...
I so afraid of losing u...
coz I really do love u, nobody will give me such strong feeling as u do...
I even forget the time with my ex...
I lost interested with guys, even my frenz recommend to me, no matter how good looking r him, I also not interested or got feeling to it...
I start wonder am I still a normal girl???
I dunno who can listen to my thought, who can I really tell to???
If I telling others, they also wont prescribe to the right method...
This is my problem, I juz can accept n solve by myself...

December 2012

izzit true 12-21-12 is the end of the world??
haha... if it is true, no more 2013.. ( cheh, I talking bullshit)
however, NOW ady December, the end of the year..
Y SO FAST???

haha... tis year passing so fast, like doing nothing in this year..
juz in a flash, goes nothing..
ok larr, got many incidents happened in 2012..
msn incident, the most terrible thing happened in my study life, n I ady failed on this subject... (FUCK)
celebrate most of my frenz birthday, tis year oni except of pascal 1... (SHIT, feel so sorry for him)
1st time celebrating valentine's day with frenz...
1st time go couple trip with my Bibi... (Genting)
I keep my hair longer... ( LOL, tis oso included mie??)
n I got new family members, which is Neslo, Mimi n hardneck (stubborn??)

Neslo---> 1st ever Baby Bear from my lovely BF ♥ ♥ ♥
Hardneck---> my 21st Birthday gift from my dear frenz Mae
Star---> last year birthday present from my Kedah BFF 

My new family member
---> Mimi
She got different eyes color, left eye is Blue n right eye is Yellow...
Cute n notty face.. (juz like me, hehe)





N the most important thing is....
I m officially 21 years old.. (WooHooo)
haha... can get married d, without sign of parent... (So Fast??)
my Bibi come over Kampar to celebrate my birthday with my frenz...
but I really happy although I ady been cheated... (they all pakat 2 cheating me)
However, they are best to me!!

My 21 birthday celebration with those Sampat Geng n my ♥ Bibi in Kampar.... 

But I think now no more same geng will gather like the pic above...
Bcoz some of them ady under probation n no intend 2 continue the study..
some of them seem like separate their life with us...
Juz like the broken mirror, cant gather again...
But I do believe that we can meet juz like we do before...

Now back to the topic...
I having lot of fun n sadness happened in this year...
nobody will going their life smoothly...
we muz facing challenges to make ourself more tougher and stronger..
Juz like Kelly Clarkson song "what doesn't kill u make u stronger"... (My favourite Song ^^)
So, make ourself more useful than previous year, improve n upgrade the inner beauty and stand taller than others does...

可怕. 受創. 童年. 信念.

受創與受傷的童年經驗，錯植了一個可怕的信念在你的心裡：

「如果我被遺棄，我會死去」，
「如果我被丟下只剩一個人，代表我非常不重要」，
「如果別人不在乎我的感覺就離開我，就代表我根本不該存在」….

這些信念在童年時期，植入，
讓你深信不疑一個充滿遺棄的世界，
與一個充滿恐懼的世界，
彷彿靠自己獨活、獨自存在是一件很不幸、很可憐的事，
所以你痛惡"一個人"的感覺，痛惡身邊"沒有任何人關愛"的虛空感。

你拒絕承認生命的虛空，
也拒絕承認生命孤獨的本質，
所以，你更想要抓住、抓緊任何可能的在乎、在意
與"想要你"的訊息。

你想要被需要，
因為你痛惡遺棄，
你想要被在乎，
因為你拒絕自己的虛無。

然而，你終究還是會在許多人事物，
特別是那些被你視為應該要愛你的身上，
感到莫大的遺棄，與莫大的漠視。

你痛苦不已，
像極了童年時期的那些恐懼，
還有無助與不得抗議的那種委屈。

你幾乎要想破頭了，
卻還是無法明白與瞭解：
為什麼我這麼好，他們卻還是不愛我....